Happy Birthday bud! My beautifully headstrong little man. Well not so little now, what with all the recent growing and lengthening you’ve been doing! In just the last few months you’ve shot up a number of centimetres and shown how time doesn’t ever stand still, not even for the slow to adapt mother, pining her long lost baby boy in the corner!
Where have these years gone? From bald, chunky baby, to bald, chunky toddler! To cute, fun-loving little boy to growing, changing, ambitious lad! And now: football mad, book obsessed, tech loving, trampoline bouncing, snuggle sharing dude! Time has slipped away so fast and yet it sometimes feels like just yesterday that you entered this world and changed our paths forever…
It’s been another full on year since I last wrote. We’ve moved house (again), spent the summer at home: having adventures, camping in the garden and cleaning up after your numerous accidents: bleeding noses and smashed front teeth to name a couple. And then just when we thought all would return to normal and the poor run of luck had ended, you went and broke your elbow on the first day back at school in September! It’s been shakey at times to say the least, but your resilient and pragmatic approach to life has buoyed us along these bumpy roads and sees us here a whole year since your last birthday still doing that thing called life and at times doing it brilliantly!
As time has moved on this year, you have grown in your confidence and self belief. You are slowly inching away from the space carved out for you under our wings as you begin to spread your own. We are not needed in the same way, not sought out as much now, as you grow more independent and begin to let go of the younger years. Even though it is a gradual transition from little child into an awakened one, it’s a journey I like to think back on before it all slips away and recall with great love. The fierce protector is still there on the sidelines, waiting for when she is needed again!
I often feel too much time passes without a proper meeting of our souls these days and I yearn for more time to just be with you: listening, laughing, learning. I guess it does make it all the more precious when we prioritise this though and I have loved walking with you, trampolining with you, food shopping with you, etc this year when just the two of us get to be together and be fully present in each others company. You are such great company and always so laid back!
Your quieter approach to life often brings a current of peace to the family (when you’re not gripped in a tenacious battle of wills). You have an inner flame that burns fiercely when needed, but doesn’t dominate us (all the time). The emotions are starting to swell more recently though and more and more you show your frustration in new ways, louder ways; more forceful feelings with sharper edges erupting in the more heated moments. When these waves aren’t surging in your little body though, you return to us again, a calming influence on the family, the easy-going boy who would rather make peace and leave a situation than fuel an argument with your own flames of passion. Your siblings are very lucky to have someone so accomodating, a brother that often puts their needs above his own, a family member that continually pushes for time together and understanding of each other above all else.
This year you have become even more passionate about reading (if that’s possible) and devour any Tom Gates, Diary of a Wimpy Kid, Harry Potter, David Walliams, etc that come your way! In fact most nights you need reminding to stop reading so you can get some sleep before the next day and another reading session. You would go through a whole book each night if you got half the chance! You also need frequent reminders that we only have one loo in this house and even though you’d happily sit and read in the cubicle for the entire afternoon, it doesn’t always fit in around the nature calls of the rest of the family! But we won’t share that one with the rest of the world!!
Reading is definitely something you find joy in and it is a delight to see. If you’re not reading we can usually find you writing, as you work hard on your ambition to become an author…if the professional footballer bit doesn’t work out! You do love a bit of football though and are still completely obsessed with Tottenham and wearing football kits and generally being constantly active. When we got given a trampoline a few months back you created new games that combine football and bouncing, so as not too miss out on either and within just a few weeks you’d practically developed a six pack after non stop jumping and kicking for hours each day! You are out there every day, come rain or shine, in the day light and when it’s pitch dark. Even the lure of your favourite dinner often isn’t enough to get you back inside!
Each year I think back to how I was able to grow something so amazing in just 36 weeks. That in just 258 days a tiny person, complete with a unique personality and resolute spirit was brought into our family and made us feel like a real unit, a tribe, a complete picture. And with each passing year I reflect on the growth of your spirit and the soaring of your soul and how firmly planted you are on this earth and many a heart. How sure you are of yourself and where you belong. How certain you are in your belief and trust of others. How positive you are about the world and just how precious you have made my life become.
I hope you have a wonderful birthday this year my precious boy. I hope you know how truly loved you are each and every day.
Kisses, hugs and birthday snugs,